This is the last one. That sentence was running in my head over and over again during the whole day. How sad. How awful, I could even say. But I don't really feel like it is the end of the year YET. We still have some French classes next week, and of course all the exams that are coming so fast... I told myself I would lock myself in during my revision, but I know I won't. And even if I would, I know Nada will kidnap me and take me away to eat some sushis. As always. What a wonderful girl, isn't she? I don't realize yet that in a few weeks (or days?), I will probably never see again some people of my class. I think that's the saddest part of those "goodbyes times", and I know that's just "the way it is", life goes by, people leave, we meet some new ones, then they leave, then we meet some new ones... The thing is, even if I'm pretty lucid about that, I still hate those moments though, because I've been so much times disappointed by beautiful promises, that have never been kept. You know what is it... words. Anyway, as I said before, all I have to do now is enjoying the last moments, without asking any questions, and most importantly, without expecting anything from the future. I had my school results today, and I can say that I'm kind of satisfied! Good point. I think I'm getting obsessed by the school record for what I want to do after high school, I'm even getting some doubts about what I was sure of before (huh english?). Like... the kind of studies I want to do. Like... the way I'm gonna follow. Like... everything. That's always the same story with me, I never know what I want, never know what I have to do, and I'm getting kind of bored with that. I am so annoying. At this point of the year, I don't want to assess of what happened this year, how I felt about everything - it's just so cliché, and I will never be done with that. Actually, I'd just say that it was an amazing year. I regretted during months having chosen this L class, but now that I learned so much things, that I read so beautiful books, that I've done things that I really love and probably live for during a year, I can just say that it wasn't such a bad choice - I don't know if it was the good one though. We'll see - but next year seems to be more and more awesome than this year. I'll write more later I guess, I'm quite tired; good night LJ.
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