Oww SHITTY BODY! It must be something like the fourth or fifth time I'm seeing that lousy doctor this month because there's ALWAYS something wrong about me. Nothing serious, but my parents are like paranoid so... Hmm anyway let's talk about something else. Actually, I don't have lots to say today -well, as always. A lot of things happened these last few days and others will probably happen soon (or not?) but I don't want to put anything personnal on the Internet so I can't say anything else but "I feel sick, Slumdog Millionaire is a good movie but doesn't deserve eight oscars in my view, and I'm going to the skate park this week-end". But wait, it is not forbidden to think, isn't it? So this is what's in my mind now. I'm often under the impression that if some people like -or worst love- me, it's because they don't really know me, because if they do, they wouldn't. Huh? Anyway, forget it. I just wonder if some other people feel this way, I mean, if someone feels like he/she is a liar everyday? Like you're not true, you're always lying to everybody just because you are simply a bad person. This is an awful feeling when you discover it, but after that you just have to live with. I know some would say that you can change but what if you can't? It must be because you're really bad, isn't it? Well, I sometimes think so. You keep living with this kind of "hidden part", which is not necessarily hidden but it's just that some people don't see it. But I don't understand why they don't. Maybe because they loved you before you became so mean; well, that's not possible because I think you were born bad. So? I don't know. You're a fake, a damned fake yes, you are a hypocrite, you don't deserve the ones who love you, but you're still at their sides, you still lives with them, talk to them, lie to them, loves them. This is the height of the viciousness.
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